TANGINA.

So I posted something earlier and I was so happy then.
Now I’m gonna post how sad I am.
Srsly? This ain’t the first time that this has ever happened to me.
It has been multiple times that I’ve been so happy and when I’m about to end my day, There’s something that will really happen, hindi pwedeng hindi, may mangyayari na ikasasama ng loob ko. Til now, it’s still a puzzle for me!! I mean why?! Why is it that when you’re so so happy the next thing that’s gonna happen is you’ll be fkkn sad. Like rly rly sad.
I don’t wanna be happy anymore. Ayoko na maging masaya kung ganito lang naman palagi. I’d rather stay in my neutral, so-so state baka sakali di ko pa nararamdaman to.
Lord help me atrract gvs I need it today. I srsly need it.
Not mad at anyone, I am simply frustrated w what’s happening

Ps: I’m not saying dapat lagi happy times lang pero hindi ba pwedeng pag masaya ka, patapusin naman yung araw na masaya ka. Ipagpabukas nalang yung kamalasan, kalungkutan and blah? Para naman di ako nabibigla. Hahahahhaa!

This is what happened earlier.. It was raining so hard so I stayed in the room. Turned the a/c on, tucked myself in a blanket, watched Big Mommas: Like father, like son. So basically, I was just chillin in the room. I was rly feeling sleepy that time but idk, I couldn’t shut my eyes and take a nap. So I decided to bathe. So yeah, I was singing while scrubbing blah blah. Hahaha! Ay waiiiit, before I took a bath pala my friend was texting me if she could chill at our house, I said yes. If you haven’t asked, almost all of my blockmates, friends and their jowas have gone here so tipong carinderia open 24/7 tong bahay namin!!! And naweirduhan ako sakanya bec she was asking me which floor I was. Ang weird bec my room was in 3rd flr but that time I was in 2nd flr. So I replied w, “Sa second”. As in she was asking me that for many times. Then yun nga, I went inside my mom’s room because it’s where my fave speakers are located, I was setting up the lappy and shits when I saw a yellow light from the door. The door was kinda open. I thought it was just our workers checking for something because we’re having our house renovated so I didn’t mind the noise downstairs plus I was talking to someone on the phone. When I was already bugged by the light, I opened the door then boom!!!! My friends.. Though not all of em were here. But my friends were holding a brazo w 18 candles planted on it!!! Brazo is my fave food!! Not only that they got balloons, isaw, taro milk tea and this is the best of em all, TOFU!!!!!!! Gosh. Those foods were my favorite. They may not be pricey and stuff but gosh, ibang level yung kilig kapag fave foods mo nasa harap mo wout asking for it! They also handed me their personal letters for me. I was so kilig, I was shouting like hell. I remember I was telling them, Seryoso? Like I can’t believe it bec we have talked about this once that poor are those who have bdays during the vacay bec they won’ be getting surprises since no moolah and some might be out of the town so yeaaah. My two friends who are taking up summer classes even ditched their chem lab to just make it happen. I now realized that when you do good things to other ppl everything will come back unto you.. x2. So happy!!!! So yeah.. Happy 18th to me!! Legit baby!!! =)))

MY POST IS FKKN LONG!!!! SORRY FOR MESSING UP YOUR DASHES!!

Maghahanap ka na nga lang ng masasabihan ng problema, pati ba naman yun problema pa.

There are many factors why it’s hard to open up to ppl. It’s because..

• They’re not trustworthy enough.

• All they care about is their own issues.

I remember, I had a friend that when she vents out things to me, I listen. LISTEN. Bec I suck at giving advices, so prolly when you come up to me, you won’t hear anything serious shits from me. Hahahaha. But when I try to open up things that bother me, she diverts the topic. And worst, the topic is about her again. I hate it. I. JUST. HATE. IT. I hate it when ppl act as if the world revolves around em. Friendship is a give and take relationship. I think any relationship is.

• They don’t care.

• You just can’t put to words all what’s inside of you.

The problem is.. Everyone puts meaning into things.
Then we tend to expect, overreact, overthink and blah.
We end up getting hurt instead of just enjoying the moment, what we should rly do.
This is my problem except for the expect part. Hahahaha.
I rly try to discourage myself to do that. I still expect at times tho.
But one of my biggest crap is when I overthink!!
And what’s so not cool about it is when it’s not really it.
I just overthink for nothing. Kill my mood and ruin my happiness.
And that’s what I’m struggling atm. Must stop this shit or else imma go cray cray.
Anywhore, Must catch zzzs already.Good night young world!! :)

So I told you that I was going to Batangas in my last post.

So here, this what happened to me in my whole stay in Laiya, San Juan, Batangas.

We stayed there for 2 days and 1 night onleeeeh.

The travel time was frkkn hassle. Like we got there after 6 hours.

We did commute because my sister didn’t wanna drive. Mas keri niya daw mapagod sa byahe na nakaupo kesa siya mismo magdadrive plus she’s not familiar with the place. Actually, the byahe is just 4 hours but since we were unfamiliar of the place we got confused w the ppl hinting us where and what to ride going there.

So yeah, we took a bus going to Batangas then another bus going to San Juan then jeep to Laiya. Then Voila!!! We stayed in Virgin Beach Resort.

The name of the resort totally fits the place.

So before going there we already had a reservation bale di kami walk in. So yung table namin pag kakain is may name na talaga. Yknow what is the cool part? It’s when I can order anything wout paying anything YET. You just have to sign the receipt and when you’re about to leave the resort dun nalang bubulaga yung bill mo. Hahahaha. Cool for me bec it’s my sister’s who shouldered all the expenses. Hahaha

We got there kinda late na so we weren’t able to enjoy the beach on our first day there so ayun!!!! Todo pasun kiss na kami!!! :)

So you can go kayaking for free if you stay there overnight like it’s your privilege.

The food there!!! Their foods are so delicioooooso!!! =))) Yes!!! Happy tummy indeed!!

If you wanna go there try going here.

Random thoughts are on my mind right now.

One thing’s for sure.. It’s all about trust.

I, myself, sometimes have a trust issue. But tbh, I don’t get myself.

Yeah I have a trust issue but I still trust ppl. Hahahaha

I’m easily persuaded w these words

“Promise, hindi talaga” “Kanino ko naman ikukwento yan” 

And yep, even just a pinky promise will make me give you this cup full of trust!!!

However, I came to a point where I kept everything to myself.

And I swear, for me, it’s not a good idea bec in times that I’m troubled I can’t vent it out since I didn’t tell it to anyone. So I carry my baggages all by myself.

It’s hard rly hard. Nakakabaliw siya. Hahaha

Trust is what we give to ppl everyday. Even in just doing simple things like riding a jeepney. When you ride in that jeep, you immediately give your trust to the driver. You trust him that he’ll bring you to your destination safely. Like when you buy goods in a store, you buy it because you trust the vendor that it’s still in good condition. Digs mo ko? Hahaha. 

So kumbaga, it’s inevitable. You unconsciously give ppl your trust. 

So what makes it a big issue?

It’s when ppl break it.

It’s when they don’t value the trust you think they deserve from you.

For me Trust > Love. Kasi, Love bumabalik yan kapag nawala diba konting effort lang or what. But trust, once it’s shattered ang kadikit nun, forever praning ka na. Diba? Well if you don’t agree, stop reading this. Hahahahaha. Chos! :p

Well you’re really gonna stop reading this bec I won’t post anything much already.

I suddenly felt sleepy. Hahahaa. 

Good night!!! :)

So yeah, have i told you that I passed a resume in 6 fastfood chains.
Just for fun. So yday, mcdo texted me that I should go today for the pre- hiring exam.
The problem is.. I’m bound to Batangas. It’s not like we can postpone it even just an hour later because we have reserved the stuff there like the cabana and the food so we need to be in time to
Not waste the money we’ve paid. If ever Imma go w the exam today.. Umaga palang exhausted na ako. Sobrang olats kasi wrong timing talaga eh. So I’m planning to take it on monday. Plus my friend’s still aslep atm. Hahahaha. So aye, pray for me. I just wanna take this as an experience. I wanna know how it runs. And I also wanna prove to my folks that I’m not pacute. Hahahaha. Have an awesome weekend!! Gonna be back here tmr pa. Btw, it’s my siblings’ birthday!
Yep ate and pj were born on April 20. Tipid diba?! Loool.

(Source: leilockheart)