It’s when ppl make it so easy to be in something and when everything gets fucked up.. They also make it easy to get out of it. JUST GET OUT OF IT but really do not do anything about it.

It’s just so easy for you fellas to say because you’re not in it. Try switching places with mine. Have you ever heard trying to fit someone else’s shoes? Guess not. I hate how I feel so burdened when I am not the only one who’s supposed to be giving shit. 

As what they say.. Faith in Humanity: Destroyed.

Have you ever felt like owning up someone’s heartaches just to save em? Because that’s what I feel now.  It’s when a friend that’s so dear to you that all has ever done was to help you and is now in need of one and you can’t do anything. 

Good night!

This post is not intended for bragging or whatever.

I just wanna post it here on my blog so stfu for bad stuff. Oks? :)

So.. Midnight of August 8, 2012; Wednesday, my friend did chat me up on Facebook.

She asked me if I want to volunteer for our school. Our school kasi was open for evacuees that time. So she asked me if I have old clothes and other foods to donate. My friends and I who were stranded in our house that night ( Yep, our house became an evacuation center for my friends and my brother’s for two nights ) were so willingly up for it!!!

Then the morning came, my friends were fetched sa house so I was the only one who can manage to accompany my friend. I also contacted some and I got 2 more friends. We did buy for foods, bottled waters and toiletries at our friend’s grocery store to donate.  Then before leaving we ate at their Pares place which by the way has one of the best pares I’ve ever tasted!!! :)

The original plan was to volunteer in our school but when we went there the evacuees were not there anymore. They were already sent home so we went somewhere near and we thought of PBB House. Hahahaha. So when we went there to drop the goods.. We tried our luck if we can register and give service on the same day and *drum rolls* We got permitted!!!! 

We did register then we were asked to go to the packaging place.

1st task - put 8-10 clothes in one plastic bag.

2nd task - segregate the goods to their responding categories.

3rd task - repack noodles, canned goods and coffee sachets.

4th task - repack rice from one big sack.

We worked our butt for 4 hours. 

We were kinda rewarded of Chowking’s bola bola siopao :)

I may not be given anything for doing this, I may have had a sore body after, I may have lacked sleep that day but everything was all worth it. I rly didn’t feel the pain when I was at the Sagip Kapamilya center especially when I saw that the plastic bags we have packed were all piled up and put in truck ready to be distributed to the affected families. That was my first time doing that so I’m so so so happy!!!! 

PS: I have no photos of us here in this post bec my friend still hasn’t uploaded yet due to phone reasons. So yup..

A friend introduced me to this series called Community..

It’s funny and witty!!!

I super love it though I haven’t finished watching season 2 yet bec of my school stuff.. Case studies, yeah uhuh. 

So any.. Let’s get to the point..

There was an episode where Jeffrey Winger ( one of the leads ) was torn between her ex-girlfriend and her first crush slash friend in Green Dale ( their school ). The girls both love him so when there came a time that he was asked to choose he just ran away. He then said that..

With Michelle Slater, he is the person he wants himself to be but..

With Britta Perry, he is the person who he really is.

His lines caught me. 

Not gonna elaborate everything in here.

Hopefully, I can take the risks na.

I know I shouldn’t be posting this but my heart is bruised. I need  to release this.

Woke up so early. Yep! Time check: 8:04 AM

Woke up at 7:30. It was a struggle for me to get out of bed but I still did it!!

Why? Because my sister and I have planned something for my mom.

If you read my last post, I mentioned there that mom and I had an argument so I planned to make her a cup of coffee as a sorry to her. So that’s what I did. My sister helped me out because I’m not good at it and I don’t drink coffee. So yeah..

After preparing the coffee, I went up to her bedroom. I found mom there checking messages on her phone. I approached her and said sorry and told her that I’ve made a coffee for her. She just nodded and continued checking her phone and told me that she’ll drink it nalang downstairs.

So.. You already got a clue kung ano ineemote ko ngayon?!

It just hurts when you’ve done something already to make up for what you did and people just don’t appreciate it. If you’re gonna ask me, I am still not fine but I’ll just let it pass, won’t make a big fuss about it because one thing that I don’t like are fights. Petty or serious. I don’t like em. 

Hayyy. When you’ve done something to them they act as if it’s the biggest crime and like you’ve never done anything good to them but when they’ve done something to you they act like it’s nothing serious, like hindi uso sayo ang salitang masakit. People are only sensitive to what they feel but REALLY insensitive to what others feel. People act as if the world is just for em and don’t give space to others. People always know what to say but don’t know how to act. They are good at giving judgments but don’t really know what’s going on. Why do I always get that kind of treatment from people? 

And at the end of this post.. I just wanna say, I hope you’re not one of em.

But if you are, mind telling me WHY?!

I am wishing to turn the tables already. To post happy stuff already but I just can’t. I don’t have those as of the moment. So please bear with me. I needed this.

TANGINA.

So I posted something earlier and I was so happy then.
Now I’m gonna post how sad I am.
Srsly? This ain’t the first time that this has ever happened to me.
It has been multiple times that I’ve been so happy and when I’m about to end my day, There’s something that will really happen, hindi pwedeng hindi, may mangyayari na ikasasama ng loob ko. Til now, it’s still a puzzle for me!! I mean why?! Why is it that when you’re so so happy the next thing that’s gonna happen is you’ll be fkkn sad. Like rly rly sad.
I don’t wanna be happy anymore. Ayoko na maging masaya kung ganito lang naman palagi. I’d rather stay in my neutral, so-so state baka sakali di ko pa nararamdaman to.
Lord help me atrract gvs I need it today. I srsly need it.
Not mad at anyone, I am simply frustrated w what’s happening

Ps: I’m not saying dapat lagi happy times lang pero hindi ba pwedeng pag masaya ka, patapusin naman yung araw na masaya ka. Ipagpabukas nalang yung kamalasan, kalungkutan and blah? Para naman di ako nabibigla. Hahahahhaa!

This is what happened earlier.. It was raining so hard so I stayed in the room. Turned the a/c on, tucked myself in a blanket, watched Big Mommas: Like father, like son. So basically, I was just chillin in the room. I was rly feeling sleepy that time but idk, I couldn’t shut my eyes and take a nap. So I decided to bathe. So yeah, I was singing while scrubbing blah blah. Hahaha! Ay waiiiit, before I took a bath pala my friend was texting me if she could chill at our house, I said yes. If you haven’t asked, almost all of my blockmates, friends and their jowas have gone here so tipong carinderia open 24/7 tong bahay namin!!! And naweirduhan ako sakanya bec she was asking me which floor I was. Ang weird bec my room was in 3rd flr but that time I was in 2nd flr. So I replied w, “Sa second”. As in she was asking me that for many times. Then yun nga, I went inside my mom’s room because it’s where my fave speakers are located, I was setting up the lappy and shits when I saw a yellow light from the door. The door was kinda open. I thought it was just our workers checking for something because we’re having our house renovated so I didn’t mind the noise downstairs plus I was talking to someone on the phone. When I was already bugged by the light, I opened the door then boom!!!! My friends.. Though not all of em were here. But my friends were holding a brazo w 18 candles planted on it!!! Brazo is my fave food!! Not only that they got balloons, isaw, taro milk tea and this is the best of em all, TOFU!!!!!!! Gosh. Those foods were my favorite. They may not be pricey and stuff but gosh, ibang level yung kilig kapag fave foods mo nasa harap mo wout asking for it! They also handed me their personal letters for me. I was so kilig, I was shouting like hell. I remember I was telling them, Seryoso? Like I can’t believe it bec we have talked about this once that poor are those who have bdays during the vacay bec they won’ be getting surprises since no moolah and some might be out of the town so yeaaah. My two friends who are taking up summer classes even ditched their chem lab to just make it happen. I now realized that when you do good things to other ppl everything will come back unto you.. x2. So happy!!!! So yeah.. Happy 18th to me!! Legit baby!!! =)))

MY POST IS FKKN LONG!!!! SORRY FOR MESSING UP YOUR DASHES!!

Maghahanap ka na nga lang ng masasabihan ng problema, pati ba naman yun problema pa.

There are many factors why it’s hard to open up to ppl. It’s because..

• They’re not trustworthy enough.

• All they care about is their own issues.

I remember, I had a friend that when she vents out things to me, I listen. LISTEN. Bec I suck at giving advices, so prolly when you come up to me, you won’t hear anything serious shits from me. Hahahaha. But when I try to open up things that bother me, she diverts the topic. And worst, the topic is about her again. I hate it. I. JUST. HATE. IT. I hate it when ppl act as if the world revolves around em. Friendship is a give and take relationship. I think any relationship is.

• They don’t care.

• You just can’t put to words all what’s inside of you.